Poem: Rigor

Self determination,
Listen,
I've got a harmonica,
Harmony,
Ceremony,
Light,
And light,
Give us a break,
Its easy to avoid,
The dark circular spiral,
That can take you in,
A vortex,
And pause,
And go,
Quick,
Hurry,
For the generations,
Pause,
Go,
My heart is racing,
We've endured,
This pain long enough,
Too long,
Stumbling,
Cultural norms,
Defeated in feeling,
That her child has not lived up to,
Classist,
Racist,
Heteronormative,
Homogeneous standards,
Anyway,
Meant to take your WHOLE being,
And fit it,
Precisely,
And uncomfortably,
Into a small box,
When really,
As we rise above,
What is outside of us in this world,
The ancestors surround,
In the screams,
Cries,
Heartbreaks,

Its safe to say,
That colonization,
Doesn't allow for the soul of the people,
An attempt to annihilate,
Why knives were hidden,
That the clothesline had a residue,
A film to ancient,
And painful to swallow,
The addiction means the soul feels defeated,
The body of that soul giving up,
A burden so immense on the heart,
Rigor,

There is an old soul,
A darkness,
It makes its presence known to me,
Through physically living through it,
But seeing it with my spiritual eyes what is there,
The truth is that this old soul is more than just one soul,
But many souls,
Over lifetimes,
Generations,

Darkness can attach itself for as long as it wishes,
And it wishes in many forms,
Addiction,
Self hate,
Self mutilation,
Abuse,
Rage,
Depression,
Suicide attempts,
Anger directed at the darkness serves in dismantling it,
Anger directed serves as understanding it,
But the majority cultures goal is to create a circle not of care,
But of continued abuse,
Darkness can attach itself for as long as it wishes,

New age bullshit talks about ascension,
Is ascension darkness,
Addiction,
Near death,
Or is the culture ill prepared for health,
Healing,
Love,
Rigor,

Self determination,
Can lead a path out of the darkness,
The path is not necessarily light,

Navigating the path,
Dark,
Light,

Remnants of colonization,
Must leave,
This is the darkness,
This is the old soul.